UGH

Apparently insomnia in pregnancy is not so terribly rare. I had the I-need-to-pee-every-hour at the end of things with Ella, but this is full on lie awake, can't fall back asleep insomnia. Last night I slept until Ben came to bed and that motion of the bed woke me up at 11:45 and I could not fall back asleep. I read. I listened to meditations. I had a snack. I tossed. I turned.

The big problem is with only 3 hours sleep I get even more nauseous than normal. Today I had a long day of teaching planned, then needed to jump in the car, drive out to Acton and do a job interview for a summer position.

I dropped Ella off and drove back home and lay down on the couch. I seriously feel like I can barely move. After talking with Ben and texting my best friend I made the call to cancel teaching.

The whole thing makes me want to cry. This can't go on. I need to sleep. I have to be able to function and get through the rest of the semester and run our household.

Sunday night was much the same as this so I got about 3 hours that night and Monday, a home day with Ella was brutal in ways you cannot even imagine.

Please, please, please Universe make it STOP!