The start of school is upon me. I'm three weeks into teaching at Wellesley and go tonight to sign new students up at Harvard. In general I like teaching people to sing, but there have been days where I end feeling as though there is something that is just missing.
That has lead me to contemplate what else I might do. Is there something I might feel more fulfilled doing? When I assess the things I am interested in, 3 categories emerge. One is music/the voice/teaching and performing, one is arts/crafts and kids and the other is yoga/social justice/the world at large.
My life and my family, what demands there are upon me and how I want to meet the needs of my family are huge considerations when I contemplate my career. I can see ways that each category can meet those needs, whether it is through the flexibility of voice teaching or the same schedule of kiddos by teaching in a pre-school situation where I could cut, glue and craft all day long.
In thinking about yoga, I realize that it feels less important to me to work as a yoga teacher than it does to live a yogic life. But, what, exactly does that mean? Here's what I've come up with so far:
I'd like to shift back to eating a more heavily vegetarian diet.
Strive to lower my impact on the world.
Develop a regular yoga practice that includes at home and part of a studio.
Cultivate a meditation practice.
Learn to hold in my mind the tenants of yoga that I studied in my certification program so I perhaps walk through each day with a different experience.
I think all of this is about striving for balance in life and learning to recognize when balance has tipped and make the subtle shifts required to put the bubble back in the middle of the level (now I've probably mixed way too many metaphors). Maybe by attempting some of these things I'll find that the missing gap is closed.
